It's my last day

I have about an hour left until my time is done at my job! I can't believe it!

I'm happy

I know that I have had many entries where I was pouring my heart out and saying about how unhappy I was. I have finally talked to my doctor and was put on Paxil for my anxiety/depression. I am a completely different person now. I don't have that oh woos is me feeling anymore. I don't obsess over the little things, I can just enjoy life again. I'm not constantly thinking about every little worry in my life. I am HAPPY again. And it feels so good. If I could walk around singing and dancing I would.

I'm back

So I haven't been blogging b/c my work denied me access to log into my blog. And now three days before I'm done working at this place I'm able to get back on. Go figure. But still I'm back.

Tonight I'm going on a date.... maybe not a date but I'm meeting a guy. I guess it is a blind date. I have been emailing him for a little over a week now and I agreed to have dinner with him tonight. I'm not sure if I'm excited or nervous or both. So far in his emails he has been really nice. He has a lot of qualities that I like. We have been able to carry on a pretty good convo via email so I'm hoping that it will be even better in person.

Now on a negative note, what if I'm not attracted to him? My co-worker is the one who told me about this guy and set up to have us exchange our emails. What am I going to say to her if there is nothing between this guy and me? I guess I will be honest w/ her. And the good thing is that I only have a few days left before I'm gone for good so if wouldn't be awkward for long if it is a bust.

I am wearing my lucky outfit today. I figured that it couldn't hurt.