Camera or No Camera

Ever since high school I have been obsessed with photography. I took two classes in HS and fell in love. Now that I'm out of college and have all the time in the world open to me I would love to go back to the community college by my house and take a photo class. And every year that passes I keep on telling myself that I will do it next year. I have also been wanting to get this pretty expensive camera for awhile now. The one I have is ok but I want a really nice one. I just got a Christmas bonus and I have been battling myself every day going back and forth on should I be smart and pay off bill (YES I NEED TO DO THAT) or do I be carefree and just go out and buy the camera!!! I know what I should do but it is having a tug of war w/ my heart.

Living in CA

This last Saturday I was driving in the car w/ my brother and sister in law who are in from Annapolis, MD. They were asking about me and what was going on in my life and then the conversation changed to where they would be moving to the end of May 2008. My brother is a Marine and his three years at Annapolis is almost up so his next home is either North Carolina or back to San Diego. They are hoping for SD since they have lived there before and have many friends that they can go back to. After they told me that SD is there pick on where they would like to end up my brother asked me if I wanted to come to SD and live on the Marine base w/ them. Yes they offered to have me come and live w/ them. And the shocking part is that this isn't the first time that he has asked me that. About 3 or 4 years ago he asked me the same thing. I being me turned them down. He told me that if I move out there in May w/ them that my sister in law could get me a job working in HR w/ her. Now if you know me at all you would know that this situation is ideal for me. 1st I LOVE the military and to be surrounded by them all the time... OH BOY! And 2nd I have always wanted to get into the HR field. But if you do know me you know that I would never leave Chicago. I can't do it. I have my family here (mostly my mom) and my friends. I don't see how I could leave them! I have been thinking about this since they asked me and I keep on thinking what if I am supposed to go. What if I am to go and get the job there. What if the man of my dreams is over there... I wish that I was more brave and would for one time in my life do something out of my comfort zone!

Gilmore Girls Kind of Life

Ok so lately I'm totally into watching the Gilmore Girls. They play an episode every day and the highlight of my day is coming home from work and watching it. I have always said that I'm a suburbs kind of girl. You know living close to a big city and having a McDonald's or Walgreen's at every corner. But after watching about two seasons worth of GG shows I'm starting to think that maybe moving out east and living in a nice small town would be ideal. Although my luck I would end up living in a town that was populated by an elderly crowd or it would be right next to a monastery and no single guys would be w/in 100 miles of me. Or the house I would live in would be so old that it would all come crumbling down after one good storm. So maybe the small town thing isn't for me..... I guess I'm stuck here in the suburbs but at least I still have a few more seasons to watch and enjoy!

Ok I know that I post a lot of cats pics but I couldn't resist

The Perfect Man.... I Don't Think So!!!!!!!!!!!!

So about 8 years ago I thought it would be fun to write a list of all the qualities that I thought the perfect man would have... I just found this list in my dresser and thought it was funny how I now know that there is no such thing... But just for giggles I wanted to share my list.

He would have....

brown straight short hair
green eyes
around 5 foot 10 inches
built
tan
clean eyebrows
deep voice
has a tattoo
not hairy
small feet (I don't like feet so the small the better)
nice hands
small nose
good teeth
smiles a lot
no ear rings
not small lips
no bean pole - need some meat on him
makes everyone laugh
non smoker
no drugs
casual drinker
likes to dance
educated
holds doors open
has a sports car
likes my kind of music
athletic
is one of my best friends
protective but not jealous
knows when to be serious
doesn't talk too much (like all the time)
doesn't dress better then me
knows about computers
good w/ kids
dresses casual but wears a suit to work
nice to his parents
likes to shop
loves to cuddle
likes having pics taken of himself
was in the military
in winter wears flannal pjs
no pointed chin
likes hugs
someone who says my name when he talks to me
would let me sleep in his clothes
catholic
would watch Miss America or gymnastics w/ me
knows how to cook
clean person
can buy me clothes that I would like
isn't a wimp, i'm the girl in the relationship
isn't afraid to cry, but not all the time
doesn't show off in front of his friends
likes to drive
smells good
take charge kind of guy
likes cats
2 to 3 years older then me
likes to travel
isn't insecure but not cocky.

Calling All Dorks...

OK so I think that I have fallen in love w/ some TV/movie characters that are slightly on the dorky side. I'm in love love love w/ the TV show Chuck and w/ the main star Chuck Bartowski played by Zachary Levi. If I meet someone like him I would be like "I'm going to marry you!" I'm not quite sure what it is about him but I do have to say that he is the one for me :)






Also a few favorites of mine are George O'Malley from Grey's Anatomy and the new movie star Shia Labeouf. I don't know what it is about these dorky people they play but I love them!

High School Reunion, I think not!

OK so this coming summer will by my 10 year High School reunion. And my answer is "I'm not going." A friend of mine just had his and was trying to get me to go to mine. I really don't want to see people that I wasn't really friends w/ at the time. And if you were good friends of mine then I probably see you already. Plus I don't feel that I have accomplished enough in my life where I would want to go and show it all off. I don't really have an urge to see if the pretty cheerleaders have gotten fat or if the football players are still the popular type.

I laughed so hard when I saw this....

List of Ways to Look Busy at Work

OK so lately I haven't been busy at work and I don't feel like asking if there is anything else for me to do. Otherwise what's going to happen is that I will be given more work and then once the holidays are over and I'm busier I would then be swamped w/ work. So instead I have come up w/ ways to look like I'm busy. Please feel free to use any of these if you fall in a similar situation.

1. It's obvious but "Work Slow" although you do run into the problem of being extremely bored.
2. I practice my Chinese writing. I get some documents from China and parts are written in Chinese. I have no idea what I'm writing but hey I'm getting better at it.
3. Stare at something that looks like it is work related but instead of really reading the document I'm trying to figure out which movie it was that Tom Cruise started to get strange.
4. I pretend I'm writing up something for work but instead I'm working on making some lists like a Target list, list of events that I would like to do w/ my friends in the upcoming year, Christmas lists (that one is a favorite), lists of songs that I might want to download.
5. Email my friends and bitch to them why I'm bored and how I don't think that I'm going to make it through the day.
6. Play a game of "You know how I know 'blank' is gay w/ my friend D. I can't name who we use in the blank part :)
7. Sing songs to myself and imagine what the dance routine would be if it was for a music video.
8. Go on myspace and stalk some people on my friends lists.
9. Go to the bathroom multiple times throughout the day. Your co-workers might start to think that you have stomach issues but if you are anything like me you do have stomach issues so it doesn't matter.
10. Once you are in the bathroom stall and you are just sitting there b/c you don't want to go back to your desk start counting the tiles on the floor. Before you know it 10 mins have passed.
11. Pretend like you are adding up all these numbers on a calculator for work but instead you are just randomly hitting numbers and then when you add them all up you are seeing how many times the number 6 comes up in your answer.
12. When the phone at work is ringing a lot and I don't want to answer it I call my cell phone and listen to all of my saved messages and just pretend that I'm busy on a work related call.

Second Chances

Ok so a few blog entries ago I wrote something titled Dear K, well I got a forward email from K last week. Well she sent it to my old work email but my friend Patty who was also on the outs w/ K forwarded it on to me and asked me if I though K sent this to us on purpose or on accident. Well I took this as an opportunity to write to her. I'm glad that I did. She emailed me back last night. When I got to work I was so nervous to open up the email in case that she was going to tell me to leave her alone. Well she updated me on what is going on in her life and she was nice in the email. She left it as saying 'I don't know where this leaves us" but I'm not too concerned about that now. I'm hoping that she will let me back in even if it is a slow process. I hope this time we can start building our friendship back. Keep your fingers crossed for me please!

Brotherly Love!

Ok so my brothers are a lot older then me. I have always questioned how important I am to them. I'm only there half sister and even though I know we don't look at each other as anything less then being fully related I have sometimes felt a little left out. But I have been thinking back at my relationship w/ them and have remembered things that they have done and said and have come to realise that I am important to them. I'm going to tell you a few of the things that have make me all warm and fuzzy inside :)

Over the summer my sister and me were at my oldest brothers house and he was showing us his photo album and it was full of pics of me and my sister. Even more then his fully related brothers. I left his house feeling so much better knowing that he cared. When my next oldest brother was graduating from college we were all hanging out in his apartment. His girlfriends sister said to me "You must be Melissa, your brother talks about you all the time and says how proud he is of you." My brother Joe told my dad once after I had tried on a dress to wear to a wedding that I am beautiful and too watch out for boys the older I got. My youngest brother told my dad that I am the nicest person that he knows. Which is funny b/c I say the same thing from him. Anyways after remembering all these things that my brothers have done or said I now don't feel left out. I know that they really do care about me.

So True Sometimes...

Love this pic

Ok D I'm totally coping you but I loved this pic. And that is a good website! Thanks for sharing.

Happy Engagement!

Congrats to D and J!! I'm so happy for both of you guys for finding each other.

i carry your heart with me

Ok I HATE poetry but I love this poem. It was from a movie that I saw once and for some reason I thought of it today.

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) i am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling) i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart).

dear k:

i miss you. i miss who we used to be. our friendship was special to me. i wish so much that we could go back a few years in time and i could find some way to fix what happened between us. but to help myself deal with this lose of friendship i pretend that ten years from now we will forget it all and find our way back into each others lives.

What I wouldn't give right now to be here

Take a chill pill

OK so lately I have not been able to manage my stress levels very well. Well actually it is pretty horrible. My psoriasis has been flaring up, I think I'm on my way to getting an ulcer and I also have black spots in my vision! So here are some of the things that maybe I could try to help my stress situation.

Quit my job. Either I could become a bum or I get a job where pretty much I have to ask is 'Would you like some fries w/ that?'

Start using the stress ball that I have. But I think that the stress ball is mocking me. It is bright orange w/ a smiley face on it and really what it is trying to say to me is 'Yeah that's right use me to de-stress yourself but what I'm really going to do is give you a cramp in your hand so you will be walking around w/a claw for a hand!' That damn smiley stress ball.

I could get a Zen garden for my desk at work. I could sit at my desk and rake my sand and rearrange the rocks. That does sound peaceful but I don't work w/ the nicest of people so first off they would make fun of me and secondly they would probably put water in my sand and write you suck in the wet sand.

If anyone has some suggestions on how I should de-stress at work please let me know.

It's a love hate thing

So food and I have a love hate relationship. There are some foods that I love but they just don't love me back. It is sad really b/c there are only a handful of different kinds of food that I like so finding stuff that will agree w/ me is an issue sometimes.

Dairy (or better yet Milk) broke up w/ me about 7 years ago. At first we were a little bit rocky w/ each other but then it was a full blow out. I couldn't even look at anything w/ milk in it w/out getting sick. It is so sad b/c there are so many great food items that consist of milk. Luckily I have found Lactaid Milk to hold me over.

Spicy food. Well anything over mild will make my body start its own fire. Only bland food for me and sometimes even that is still no good.

Greasy food (Pizza Hut is a good example) is like giving me a fast acting laxative. It is not a pretty picture.

I would like to cross you off my list

OK so I have a list of things that I would like to do. Kinda like a list of things I would like to do before I die but not really. My goal is cross off at least one thing every year.

Here are some of the things on my list:

1. Go to the art museum. I love art and I'm so shocked that I have never made it there.
2. Go horse back riding.
3. Rock climbing. Maybe I should start in an indoor place like at Dicks Sporting Goods. I'm not athletic at all.
4. See an opera
5. Go to Hawaii. Ideally I would like to go there on my honeymoon.
6. Take some dance lessons! This one is a must. I would love to learn a dance for my first dance as husband and wife at my wedding.
7. Take some more photography classes.
8. Plan a time to go on vacation but I don't want to plan a destination. I would love to just jump in the car w/ whoever I'm going w/ and just drive and see where we end up.
9. Grow my hair super long and then chop it off and donate it.
10. Go to a comedy club
11. Volunteer somewhere.

Dancing

On Monday I'm going to see So You Think You Can Dance and I'm so excited. I can't wait to see my favorite couple do my favorite dance. I think that in another life I was a dancer!

November 1, 2008

Ok so today is my birthday. I thought it would be fun to write about what I would want my life to be like one year from today.

On November 1, 2008 I would like to be waking up that morning in my own place. Either living alone or w/ a room mate. I will have gotten another cat, a ragdoll cat named Verona. Biscuit will also be with me in his old age. I will be working at a new job that I love and it will pay enough so that I am more financially stable. Maybe it would be that HR job that I have always wanted. I will be in a serious relationship with a guy who is everything I want and I will be 100% in love w/ him and will want to marry him. My sister Jenne will be in the process of moving back to IL w/ her family and her, my mom and I would have lunch together and then go shopping. For dinner my wonderful boyfriend will be talking me to the Melting Pot restaurant (a new favorite of mine) for dinner and surprise me w/ a really nice gift, maybe a coach purse! My family will give me a surprise birthday the weekend after my birthday b/c they will know that turning 29 will be harder then turning the big 30! Yeah that sounds good to me. I will put that all on my birthday list for next year.

Funny & Cute

The Party

So on Friday I had my Halloween/Bday party. I had so much fun and I would like to thank my friends so much for adding to my happiness. The evening had much entertainment to offer the people who attended. There were many of us in our wonderful itchy wigs although the best wig was Jane Jetsons and her sex hair!! Someone had there d*ck in a box. There was an ostrich who keep on poking all the ladies. A racist grandma that had us all laughing even though we shouldn't have been. A pervert uncle who keep on staring at Wednesday and me, Mia. We had a superman who couldn't sit down w/out being chocked by all his muscles. An astronaut in a diaper plus a shady Clark Kent. A women who looked like a man and scared all of the other ladies w/ her butchness. A Seattle ER doc w/ wonderful hair plus a Ms Adams who keep on showing her boobies. Mia Wallace kept on smacking her booty and doing her dance b/c no one knew who she was. And the best of all was a Superman beagle.

Things That Make Me Happy

Going to my new favorite restaurant Cheeseburger in Paradise w/ my friends. They have my favorite drink there too.

Having traditions w/ my family. Every Halloween we make tacos for dinner. My mom made tacos on 10/31/79, the day before I was born and we have pretty much done it every year since!

Eating Greek food at Athena's at Greek town. I should have been Greek, I love there food.

Doing things for other people. I love helping out friends and family! If I can help make someone happy then my job is done.

I love it when you call, text or email someone and they tell you that they were just thinking of you and had planned on calling, texting or email.

I'm new to blogging but I love that I can vent about things that are bothering me or write about some of my favorite memories.

Having such close friends that share the same personalities and hobbies as I do. My friends are really just an extension of my family.

Doing fun activities around the holidays like carving pumpkins, making Easter eggs or ginger bread houses.

Going to the movies!!! I love a great cinematic adventure.

Birthdays!

OK so I am one week away from turning one year older. And with all of the excitement and anticipation of what the party will be like this year, it has made me think back to birthdays in the past. I think that I have had two that have been my favorite.

Favorite birthday party #1: When the big 24 was coming around I had a hard time knowing that I was turning 24 (don't ask why) and my close friends knew it. I was celebrating my birthday at this club/lounge and invited a lot of my friends. We were all up on the little VIP area (if you can even call it that) and about an hour of being there 2 of my close friends walked up to the VIP area and they were carrying a birthday cake and all my friends sang Happy Birthday to me. They also had flowers for me. Even though it wasn't anything big that really made my birthday and made turning 24 a little bit easier.

Favorite birthday party #2: Last years birthday party was a lot of fun. I decided to have all of my closest friends over to my house for some homemade pizza and dessert and then we all headed out to Dave N Busters. I had never been there before and I ended up having such a blast. We all kind of split up once we got there but I was able to make my rounds and hang out w/ everyone. Most of my friends gave me there tickets that they won so I was even able to walk away w/ a huge pink care bear that was about half my size.

I guess it doesn't really matter what I do for my birthdays as long as I am with the people I care about most. So this birthday still has hope of becoming one of my favorites.

Places I have been:

1983 - Disney World w/ my parents and grandparents
1987 - Galena w/the family
1992 - Dallas TX for my sisters wedding
1998 - Disney World w/ two of my girlfriends. First trip w/out parents.
1999 - San Diego, CA visited my brother and sister in law
2000 - Clearwater, FL w/ my brother and sister in law
2001 - Cape Cod & NH visited brother and sister in law and niece
2002 - Clearwater, FL w/ four of my girlfriends. Favorite trip so far.
2003 - Vegas w/ two girlfriends
2003 - Cruise to Key West and Cozumel. Then stayed in Miami for five days.
2005 - Dells
2006 - Myrtle Beach w/ four of my girlfriends
2006 - Dells

I need branch out and go to new places!!

How I Spent My Saturday Night...

Saturday night I went to Bamboo for my friend P's birthday. First off I want to start by saying that I'm so over the whole club thing. I feel old and want to go home about an hour of being out. Well I tried to have positive thoughts this time and it did help b/c my mood was up. My friend T arrived a little bit after us and he had brought a friend, Mike. I thought he was pretty cute and told my girls. P pulled T aside and told him that I thought he was cute and I got the thumbs up from P that he was single. I then kept on going up to my girls saying that I don't have any game anymore and trying to hit on a guy was freaking me out. What if my hair was flat or if I had eye goop in the corner of my eyes. I used to be so good at talking to guys but it has been so long. Well I finally got up the nerve and walked over and joined T, P, and Mikes conversation. Mike and I started our own conversation and about 5 minutes later I was ready to walk away and never talk to the guy again. He was so dopey and not worth my time. I was able to avoid him for most of the night. P then wanted to go downstairs and dance. I love to dance so I wasn't going to say no. T and Mike followed us down. At first we were all having a great time dancing in a circle. All of a sudden Mike (who was to my right) is not there anymore. I start to feel that someone is behind me dancing really close. I kinda stepped closer to T and Mike backed away. Thinking that he got the hint that I didn't want to bump n grind I started to let loose again and get my groove on. Moments later someone puts there hands on my shoulders from behind me and then turned me around so that I am facing strangers and then basically tried to butt f*ck me. Not happy at all I basically just walked away from him and started to dance w/ P. I am so not like a 21 year old who would be like "Oh yeah, give me more" I am so past that stage now. So basically I started the night thinking that this guy might have some potential to thinking of what a loser he was. But I was texting all night w/ the new boy D all night so it wasn't all a wasted night!!

411

The following story took place about 9 or 10 years ago. My friend Karen was over at my house and we had been listening to the radio and heard that there was going to be some sort of contest to win something NSYNC related. Since we were such big fans we wanted to have the phone number to the radio station so that we would be able to call them ASAP when the contest was starting. So Karen suggested that I call 411 to get the phone number. Ok here is where the story starts but I first want to state that I had never called 411 before AND didn't know what the wonderful operators of the 411 company would be asking me AND I don't have the best hearing so now after making my disclaimer I will start the 411 conversation:

Operator: City and State?

Melissa: Melissa, Illinois (I thought they had asked 'What is your name and state')

Operator: Ummm hold on..... Ok I need to transfer you to someone else....

Operator #2: City and State?

Melissa: March 15th 1999 (I thought they had asked 'What is the date')

Operator #2: (giggling) Hold on and let me transfer you to someone else.....

Operator #3: Honey what are you looking for?

(At this point I'm starting to think that I'm doing something wrong in our conversation plus Karen is looking at me like I'm looney.)

Melissa: I need the radio station.

Operator #3: What city is it in?

Melissa: (flustered) I don't know Rockford, Dekalb I don't know.

Karen is laughing so hard at this point that she is turning blue from not breathing. Which makes me start to laugh. Plus Operator #3 is laughing, so I had no choice but to hang up the phone.

Needless to say I never got the phone number to the radio station, we never won the NSYNC stuff and have refused to call 411 since that time!

I Wish

Ok I know that there are many others things that I would want to wish for like, stop world hunger and stop terrorist from attacking our country but I wanted to keep this wish list a little bit on the fun side and only talk about ME :)

I wish for my siblings to move back to IL. Mostly my sister Jenne. She moved away when I was 10 and whenever she visits and leaves me I go into a weeks long depression.

I wish that I had a job going something with photography.

I wish that I would find someone special who I would want to spend the rest of my life with.

I wish that my frequent spats of anxiety would just go away one day.

I wish that I had straight hair for half the days out of the month and curly on the others.

I wish that I didn't have stomach issues and that I could eat any kind of food with out having problems south of the border.

I wish that some old friendships of mine could be repaired.

I wish that I was able to make more decisions on my own with out having to ask others what they think.

I wish that I would follow my heart and not my head.

I wish that I had more time with my grandma B before she got sick and left me.

Lady in Red

September 1996 my brother Chris was getting married to his wife Jenny. She is from Moline IL so the wedding was taking place in her home town. The reception was going to be held at The Abby somewhere in the Quad Cities. I was 16 at the time. Since it was a fall wedding I decided to wear a red dress. At the time I wasn't a huge fan of the color red but the dress looked good on me so I went w/ it. My dad had told me after seeing what I was going to be wearing that he was going to request that the DJ play the song Lady in Red during the reception so that he could dance with me. I loved the idea but figured that my dad would forget and the dance would never take place. So it was the day of the wedding and the reception was in full swing. All of my family was there (which is a lot), a total of five brothers and their better halfs, my sister and her husband, my parents, grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins and a few nieces and nephews. We were about half way into our dancing frenzy and when I frenzy I mean it. My family are a bunch of dancing machines. I was tired and had stepped off the dance floor and was chit chatting w/ some family members when all of a sudden the DJ stopped the music and started talking. He said that he just had a request from the father of the Groom to dance with his daughter and instantly the song Lady in Red started to play. I felt like crying but held back the tears of happiness. My dad escorted me onto the dance floor and we started to dance. Everyone had left the dance floor and watched us. We were the only ones out there dancing. Just when I couldn't have been any happier my brother Chris (the groom) walked up and asked my dad to cut in. After about 30 seconds another brother stepped up to cut in. All five brothers waited for there turn to dance with me. My dad then took the last turn and the song ended. That was one of the happiest moments I have ever felt. And even too this day I love the color red and wear it to almost every special event I go to just waiting for another Lady in Red moment!

Signs that you are getting old (Thanks Topangabay for your help on this one)

instead of listening to the radio stations morning show that is hip and all they do is talk about sex you find your self flipping on the station known as the mix where they talk about low key events like the DJ's mom giving her results of who should be kicked off of dancing w/ the stars
you take tums
you have to go to the doctor much more often for strange pains that you are feeling in your body
10pm is so your bed time
you start to find that you have more in common w/ someone who is ten years older then you instead of someone who is ten years younger then you
you actually start to pay attention to politics
it's hard to bend over and pick things up off the floor
you talk about high school like it was yesterday but then realize your 10year reunion is coming up in a few months
you've known someone for over 20 years
you pay a mortgage
you buy 'sensible' shoes
you can no longer shop at Abercrombie and Fitch or American Eagle. and you can forget even walking into the store forever 21 b/c the size of the shorts there would only fit on one of your butt cheeks
You buy face cream to help stop the wrinkles
you have wrinkles
you want a car with a lot of airbags and is easy to get into the back seatto hook up a car seat if needed
you cut coupons
you feel awkward when you go to a club and realize you're the oldest onethere
you have ideas of quilts that you want to make and want to start to learn how to crochet
you can't sleep past 8am even on weekends
you have a 401K
you start to daydream of what your kids will look like instead of daydreaming of what meeting justin timberlake would be like
a good evening is staying in with friends and playing games
you now believe you have a biological clock and yes it's ticking
you're an aunt/uncle
you find a grey hair
you can't eat certain foods because you know what it will do to yourstomach
you realize that you spent years trying to not get pregnant and now all youwant is to get pregnant
panties that go up your butt are not cool anymore
aunt flo FINALLY becomes regular
you are no longer embarrassed to buy feminine products or condoms
you only shave your legs in the summer
you live with a boy/girl that's not a roommate
you have to pay for your own vacations and can no longer rely on yourparents to pay
you have to buy your own present for someone getting married/having ababy/etc.
you forget how old you're going to be on your birthday
once you remember how old you are you lie to yourself and friends on your age to make yourself feel better
your parents call you on the wrong day to wish you a happy birthday becuaseeven they can't remember back to when you were born..it was that long ago
your boobs aren't as perky as they once were
you can't go out drinking and make it to work okay the next day
you no longer have the desire to drink until you're drunk
you are in your "late 20s"
you watch the news
holidays are no longer fun for you now but you love to watch the little ones get excited about them
you no longer are ok w/ dating mr. right now you now want to find mr. right
birthday parties are no longer that fun for you

The Forgotten Trip

I always seem to forget about the day trip that I took up to Mall of America. Which is strange b/c I was able to get out of a day of High School, plus it was my first and only time up to MALL OF AMERICA. As a graduation gift from my aunt and uncle they decided to fly me up to MN to go to Mall of America. Since I love to shop I was ecstatic at this idea. So my mom and aunt escorted me up there. It was a 45 min flight and one short bus ride away. As soon as I got on the bus the excitement disappeared slightly. MN (at least the area right outside the airport) was very blah and thoughts of 'Where the HELL am I' ran through my head. But then all of a sudden there it was. What a beauteous sight. It was the mall of all malls and it was right in front of me. There were so many stores and rides even inside. I was in Heaven. But then about fours hours later we were all tired and decided it was time to go back home. I don't think I was an as experienced shopper at the time and couldn't handle that much shopping.

F***ERS!!!!

I have come to realize that the F bomb has been used quite frequently at my work. So I decided to do a little experiment on my last work day. The word F***ers was used over 15 times by my co-workers after they have gotten off the phone w/ a customer or were just talking about crap that our place of business has dealt them. So that makes me wonder why do I still work at a place that just throws out the F bomb so often. My instincts are now telling me to run! Run away as quickly as possible. I don't mind to curse every once in awhile but with that high a frequency of these words I just don't think my ears can take it anymore. Some serious action has got to be taken on my part to get me the HELL out of there.

Things that you might not know about me (Some are serious thoughts some are funny and some are just random facts):

My Grandma B’s nickname for me was Liz.
I’m into politics! Right wing all the way.
I come from a Brady Bunch kind of family. Five brothers and one sister w/ a foster sister on the side.
I have a fear of dogs even though I used to have one.
I used to think that if you wore socks all the time (even in the summer) it would prevent your feet from growing big, thanks for that Grandma!! I still wear socks all the time; I guess it just stuck w/ me.
In first grade I was a little nutzo and had to go to consoling.
I used to eat sardines w/ my oldest brother Mark all the time.
I watched Sleeping Beauty so many times that the tape stopped working and I had to buy another one.
Florida is my favorite state to vacation to.
I went to a gun range and shot a 22 mm gun and I did pretty well.
Pottery Barn is my favorite store. That is how I want to decorate my house.
The TV show Friends was the best show of all times.
I could eat pizza and sandwiches only for the rest of my life and be happy.
I used to go to Kmart with my Grandma and Grandpa B all the time and they would get me a slurpee and big pretzel w/ cheese every time. I think that is where my love for both comes from.
My dad was the only dad that would walk me to school in the first grade and would wait w/ all the mommies.
I have never been in love but thought that two guys from my past I could have married.
I had a brother, Richard Arthur, who died after being alive for a week.
Barbies were my absolute favorite toy as a kid. I always wanted a big Barbie house but never got one. I had to settle for Barbie’s Ferrari.
I have 15 nieces and nephews
My grandparents helped raise me as a small child.
I am ambidextrous but choose to write w/ my left hand b/c my sister was left-handed.
I am obsessed w/ Harry Potter and secretly wish that I could be a wizard.
I love to use my DVR (Tivo) I have already gone through all the seasons of Beverly Hills 90210 (two times), Dawson’s Creek, One Tree Hill and I am currently working on Gilmore Girls.
My childhood friends were Judy and Kelly.
I used to be obsessed with New Kids on the Block. I still own one of there cds.
I used to have an imaginary friend Tommy who I would marry at least once a week.
I used to hand sew clothes and blankets for my dolls and stuffed animals.
I am afraid that I let a good guy go. I fear that what I thought wasn’t enough for me to date could have been enough and it was my mistake by letting him go.
After watching 1992 Olympics I wanted to become a gymnast. I signed up for classes and had to drop out because doing all the somersaults made me motion sick.
I used to have tea parties w/ my oldest brother when he would baby sit me.
I love to scrapbook
I have a phobia of big things.
I love make up. I can’t stop buying it and only use about half of the stuff I have.
I truly miss my friend Karen. I hope that one day we can be friends again.
I was in the talent show in fourth and fifth grade. My friends and I danced to Paula Abdul’s songs both years.
I am crushing on a boy right now. He had a girlfriend and I doubt that he even notices me but I still don’t mind staring at him five days a week.
I like to have everything planned out. I’m not spontaneous at all.
My sister got a matching tattoo of mine.
I have a newfound love for watching the Bears play football.
I used to suffer from migraines. Good thing I out grew that.
I have been friends w/ my best friend since I was 18.
I used to watch the movie Aliens everyday after school w/ my babysitter Tracy.
I have an eye phobia.
I also have a really good friend who I have only known for a few years. We can tell each other everything.
I wish that I were closer w/ my siblings. They are all married and have kids so we are not at the same stages of our lives at the moment.
I wish that I could be a photographer. My goal is to have my own dark room like my Grandpa G used to have.

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