So True Sometimes...

Love this pic

Ok D I'm totally coping you but I loved this pic. And that is a good website! Thanks for sharing.

Happy Engagement!

Congrats to D and J!! I'm so happy for both of you guys for finding each other.

i carry your heart with me

Ok I HATE poetry but I love this poem. It was from a movie that I saw once and for some reason I thought of it today.

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) i am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling) i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart).

dear k:

i miss you. i miss who we used to be. our friendship was special to me. i wish so much that we could go back a few years in time and i could find some way to fix what happened between us. but to help myself deal with this lose of friendship i pretend that ten years from now we will forget it all and find our way back into each others lives.

What I wouldn't give right now to be here

Take a chill pill

OK so lately I have not been able to manage my stress levels very well. Well actually it is pretty horrible. My psoriasis has been flaring up, I think I'm on my way to getting an ulcer and I also have black spots in my vision! So here are some of the things that maybe I could try to help my stress situation.

Quit my job. Either I could become a bum or I get a job where pretty much I have to ask is 'Would you like some fries w/ that?'

Start using the stress ball that I have. But I think that the stress ball is mocking me. It is bright orange w/ a smiley face on it and really what it is trying to say to me is 'Yeah that's right use me to de-stress yourself but what I'm really going to do is give you a cramp in your hand so you will be walking around w/a claw for a hand!' That damn smiley stress ball.

I could get a Zen garden for my desk at work. I could sit at my desk and rake my sand and rearrange the rocks. That does sound peaceful but I don't work w/ the nicest of people so first off they would make fun of me and secondly they would probably put water in my sand and write you suck in the wet sand.

If anyone has some suggestions on how I should de-stress at work please let me know.

It's a love hate thing

So food and I have a love hate relationship. There are some foods that I love but they just don't love me back. It is sad really b/c there are only a handful of different kinds of food that I like so finding stuff that will agree w/ me is an issue sometimes.

Dairy (or better yet Milk) broke up w/ me about 7 years ago. At first we were a little bit rocky w/ each other but then it was a full blow out. I couldn't even look at anything w/ milk in it w/out getting sick. It is so sad b/c there are so many great food items that consist of milk. Luckily I have found Lactaid Milk to hold me over.

Spicy food. Well anything over mild will make my body start its own fire. Only bland food for me and sometimes even that is still no good.

Greasy food (Pizza Hut is a good example) is like giving me a fast acting laxative. It is not a pretty picture.

I would like to cross you off my list

OK so I have a list of things that I would like to do. Kinda like a list of things I would like to do before I die but not really. My goal is cross off at least one thing every year.

Here are some of the things on my list:

1. Go to the art museum. I love art and I'm so shocked that I have never made it there.
2. Go horse back riding.
3. Rock climbing. Maybe I should start in an indoor place like at Dicks Sporting Goods. I'm not athletic at all.
4. See an opera
5. Go to Hawaii. Ideally I would like to go there on my honeymoon.
6. Take some dance lessons! This one is a must. I would love to learn a dance for my first dance as husband and wife at my wedding.
7. Take some more photography classes.
8. Plan a time to go on vacation but I don't want to plan a destination. I would love to just jump in the car w/ whoever I'm going w/ and just drive and see where we end up.
9. Grow my hair super long and then chop it off and donate it.
10. Go to a comedy club
11. Volunteer somewhere.

Dancing

On Monday I'm going to see So You Think You Can Dance and I'm so excited. I can't wait to see my favorite couple do my favorite dance. I think that in another life I was a dancer!

November 1, 2008

Ok so today is my birthday. I thought it would be fun to write about what I would want my life to be like one year from today.

On November 1, 2008 I would like to be waking up that morning in my own place. Either living alone or w/ a room mate. I will have gotten another cat, a ragdoll cat named Verona. Biscuit will also be with me in his old age. I will be working at a new job that I love and it will pay enough so that I am more financially stable. Maybe it would be that HR job that I have always wanted. I will be in a serious relationship with a guy who is everything I want and I will be 100% in love w/ him and will want to marry him. My sister Jenne will be in the process of moving back to IL w/ her family and her, my mom and I would have lunch together and then go shopping. For dinner my wonderful boyfriend will be talking me to the Melting Pot restaurant (a new favorite of mine) for dinner and surprise me w/ a really nice gift, maybe a coach purse! My family will give me a surprise birthday the weekend after my birthday b/c they will know that turning 29 will be harder then turning the big 30! Yeah that sounds good to me. I will put that all on my birthday list for next year.