Camera or No Camera

Ever since high school I have been obsessed with photography. I took two classes in HS and fell in love. Now that I'm out of college and have all the time in the world open to me I would love to go back to the community college by my house and take a photo class. And every year that passes I keep on telling myself that I will do it next year. I have also been wanting to get this pretty expensive camera for awhile now. The one I have is ok but I want a really nice one. I just got a Christmas bonus and I have been battling myself every day going back and forth on should I be smart and pay off bill (YES I NEED TO DO THAT) or do I be carefree and just go out and buy the camera!!! I know what I should do but it is having a tug of war w/ my heart.

Living in CA

This last Saturday I was driving in the car w/ my brother and sister in law who are in from Annapolis, MD. They were asking about me and what was going on in my life and then the conversation changed to where they would be moving to the end of May 2008. My brother is a Marine and his three years at Annapolis is almost up so his next home is either North Carolina or back to San Diego. They are hoping for SD since they have lived there before and have many friends that they can go back to. After they told me that SD is there pick on where they would like to end up my brother asked me if I wanted to come to SD and live on the Marine base w/ them. Yes they offered to have me come and live w/ them. And the shocking part is that this isn't the first time that he has asked me that. About 3 or 4 years ago he asked me the same thing. I being me turned them down. He told me that if I move out there in May w/ them that my sister in law could get me a job working in HR w/ her. Now if you know me at all you would know that this situation is ideal for me. 1st I LOVE the military and to be surrounded by them all the time... OH BOY! And 2nd I have always wanted to get into the HR field. But if you do know me you know that I would never leave Chicago. I can't do it. I have my family here (mostly my mom) and my friends. I don't see how I could leave them! I have been thinking about this since they asked me and I keep on thinking what if I am supposed to go. What if I am to go and get the job there. What if the man of my dreams is over there... I wish that I was more brave and would for one time in my life do something out of my comfort zone!

Gilmore Girls Kind of Life

Ok so lately I'm totally into watching the Gilmore Girls. They play an episode every day and the highlight of my day is coming home from work and watching it. I have always said that I'm a suburbs kind of girl. You know living close to a big city and having a McDonald's or Walgreen's at every corner. But after watching about two seasons worth of GG shows I'm starting to think that maybe moving out east and living in a nice small town would be ideal. Although my luck I would end up living in a town that was populated by an elderly crowd or it would be right next to a monastery and no single guys would be w/in 100 miles of me. Or the house I would live in would be so old that it would all come crumbling down after one good storm. So maybe the small town thing isn't for me..... I guess I'm stuck here in the suburbs but at least I still have a few more seasons to watch and enjoy!

Ok I know that I post a lot of cats pics but I couldn't resist

The Perfect Man.... I Don't Think So!!!!!!!!!!!!

So about 8 years ago I thought it would be fun to write a list of all the qualities that I thought the perfect man would have... I just found this list in my dresser and thought it was funny how I now know that there is no such thing... But just for giggles I wanted to share my list.

He would have....

brown straight short hair
green eyes
around 5 foot 10 inches
built
tan
clean eyebrows
deep voice
has a tattoo
not hairy
small feet (I don't like feet so the small the better)
nice hands
small nose
good teeth
smiles a lot
no ear rings
not small lips
no bean pole - need some meat on him
makes everyone laugh
non smoker
no drugs
casual drinker
likes to dance
educated
holds doors open
has a sports car
likes my kind of music
athletic
is one of my best friends
protective but not jealous
knows when to be serious
doesn't talk too much (like all the time)
doesn't dress better then me
knows about computers
good w/ kids
dresses casual but wears a suit to work
nice to his parents
likes to shop
loves to cuddle
likes having pics taken of himself
was in the military
in winter wears flannal pjs
no pointed chin
likes hugs
someone who says my name when he talks to me
would let me sleep in his clothes
catholic
would watch Miss America or gymnastics w/ me
knows how to cook
clean person
can buy me clothes that I would like
isn't a wimp, i'm the girl in the relationship
isn't afraid to cry, but not all the time
doesn't show off in front of his friends
likes to drive
smells good
take charge kind of guy
likes cats
2 to 3 years older then me
likes to travel
isn't insecure but not cocky.

Calling All Dorks...

OK so I think that I have fallen in love w/ some TV/movie characters that are slightly on the dorky side. I'm in love love love w/ the TV show Chuck and w/ the main star Chuck Bartowski played by Zachary Levi. If I meet someone like him I would be like "I'm going to marry you!" I'm not quite sure what it is about him but I do have to say that he is the one for me :)






Also a few favorites of mine are George O'Malley from Grey's Anatomy and the new movie star Shia Labeouf. I don't know what it is about these dorky people they play but I love them!

High School Reunion, I think not!

OK so this coming summer will by my 10 year High School reunion. And my answer is "I'm not going." A friend of mine just had his and was trying to get me to go to mine. I really don't want to see people that I wasn't really friends w/ at the time. And if you were good friends of mine then I probably see you already. Plus I don't feel that I have accomplished enough in my life where I would want to go and show it all off. I don't really have an urge to see if the pretty cheerleaders have gotten fat or if the football players are still the popular type.

I laughed so hard when I saw this....

List of Ways to Look Busy at Work

OK so lately I haven't been busy at work and I don't feel like asking if there is anything else for me to do. Otherwise what's going to happen is that I will be given more work and then once the holidays are over and I'm busier I would then be swamped w/ work. So instead I have come up w/ ways to look like I'm busy. Please feel free to use any of these if you fall in a similar situation.

1. It's obvious but "Work Slow" although you do run into the problem of being extremely bored.
2. I practice my Chinese writing. I get some documents from China and parts are written in Chinese. I have no idea what I'm writing but hey I'm getting better at it.
3. Stare at something that looks like it is work related but instead of really reading the document I'm trying to figure out which movie it was that Tom Cruise started to get strange.
4. I pretend I'm writing up something for work but instead I'm working on making some lists like a Target list, list of events that I would like to do w/ my friends in the upcoming year, Christmas lists (that one is a favorite), lists of songs that I might want to download.
5. Email my friends and bitch to them why I'm bored and how I don't think that I'm going to make it through the day.
6. Play a game of "You know how I know 'blank' is gay w/ my friend D. I can't name who we use in the blank part :)
7. Sing songs to myself and imagine what the dance routine would be if it was for a music video.
8. Go on myspace and stalk some people on my friends lists.
9. Go to the bathroom multiple times throughout the day. Your co-workers might start to think that you have stomach issues but if you are anything like me you do have stomach issues so it doesn't matter.
10. Once you are in the bathroom stall and you are just sitting there b/c you don't want to go back to your desk start counting the tiles on the floor. Before you know it 10 mins have passed.
11. Pretend like you are adding up all these numbers on a calculator for work but instead you are just randomly hitting numbers and then when you add them all up you are seeing how many times the number 6 comes up in your answer.
12. When the phone at work is ringing a lot and I don't want to answer it I call my cell phone and listen to all of my saved messages and just pretend that I'm busy on a work related call.

Second Chances

Ok so a few blog entries ago I wrote something titled Dear K, well I got a forward email from K last week. Well she sent it to my old work email but my friend Patty who was also on the outs w/ K forwarded it on to me and asked me if I though K sent this to us on purpose or on accident. Well I took this as an opportunity to write to her. I'm glad that I did. She emailed me back last night. When I got to work I was so nervous to open up the email in case that she was going to tell me to leave her alone. Well she updated me on what is going on in her life and she was nice in the email. She left it as saying 'I don't know where this leaves us" but I'm not too concerned about that now. I'm hoping that she will let me back in even if it is a slow process. I hope this time we can start building our friendship back. Keep your fingers crossed for me please!

Brotherly Love!

Ok so my brothers are a lot older then me. I have always questioned how important I am to them. I'm only there half sister and even though I know we don't look at each other as anything less then being fully related I have sometimes felt a little left out. But I have been thinking back at my relationship w/ them and have remembered things that they have done and said and have come to realise that I am important to them. I'm going to tell you a few of the things that have make me all warm and fuzzy inside :)

Over the summer my sister and me were at my oldest brothers house and he was showing us his photo album and it was full of pics of me and my sister. Even more then his fully related brothers. I left his house feeling so much better knowing that he cared. When my next oldest brother was graduating from college we were all hanging out in his apartment. His girlfriends sister said to me "You must be Melissa, your brother talks about you all the time and says how proud he is of you." My brother Joe told my dad once after I had tried on a dress to wear to a wedding that I am beautiful and too watch out for boys the older I got. My youngest brother told my dad that I am the nicest person that he knows. Which is funny b/c I say the same thing from him. Anyways after remembering all these things that my brothers have done or said I now don't feel left out. I know that they really do care about me.