This felt good...

About 15 mins ago I was asked out to dinner and a movie by a boy! It felt good to be wanted! I already have plans so I can't go but we are going to set something up soon. I don't like this guy in a romantic way but it still felt good.

Unhappy

I don't know what it is but lately I have been in such bad moods. I have some thoughts on what can be the cause of it but sometimes I just don't know why. Maybe I'm sick like Britney Spears and am bipolar. If I start wearing a pink wig please reach out and try to help me. Ok enough with the joking around. Last night in a convo I had w/ a friend she mentioned that she was so busy in life that she didn't even have him to worry about stuff. Well I don't have anything right now to make myself busy so I need something. Any suggestions???

Throwing in the towel

I think that it is time for me to give up on a few things. It is finally time for me to delete some of those phone numbers that should have been gone a long time ago. You know it is numbers from a few guys that I hoped would one day call me out of the blue and ask how I am or ask to do something. It is also time for me to stop trying to reconnect w/ a guy who used to like me. I can only invite him out soo many times before I look like a stalker. I did get confirmation on that last night too so I need to stop. It is time for me to stop trying to make things work when I know that they won't. Some friendships just are not worth saving. You really pissed me off after making a big deal when I didn't call you back and then when I did call I never heard back from you. It has been almost two months now!!

Thanks Ladies

Thanks KB and D for lunch. It just added to the happy day that I'm having. Lets just hope that this last the rest of the day!!

Winter Sucks

I'm so sick of this weather. We just got another maybe five inches of snow last night/this morning. And I'm so sick of drivers who drive up on your ass in these weather conditions. I so just want to slam on my brakes so that they hit me! There was an SUV (shocking) that was so close to me this morning and I couldn't have even gone faster if I wanted too b/c there were cars in front of me and I was kinda close to them. Usually when it snows I leave about a three to five (hehe) cars in front of me but this morning it was about only two. Grrrrr is all I have to say right now, that and I almost got hit by a car when I was making a left turn and it so would have been my fault :) OOPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to be what my friends think of me

Last night I came across an old email from a friend. In this email my friend was telling me about how strong I am as a person. Thinking back now I wonder if I am still that strong girl or was I ever that girl. Maybe I just gave off the impression that I was that way. On the inside I usually feel like I don't have my shit together and I'm shocked to hear people say that they think differently of me. This friend wasn't the first to say something like this to me. So either I have everyone fooled or I am much different then even I think! I hope that I am what some people see in me.

A Few Good Men

Ok a friend just asked me to write a blog b/c she is bored at work and wants something to read. Too much pressure to come up w/ anything good so I'm going to go a different route. I'm going to give you a list of some actors that I thought were HOTT in these roles. So after you read please let me know if you agree or have any others that you would like to add to my list...

Joaquin Phoenix - Ladder 49
Keanue Reeves - Speed
Jason Statham - The Transporter 1 & 2
Brad Pitt - Legend of the Falls, all of the Ocean movies and Troy
Orlando Bloom - Pirates of the Caribbean
Tom Cruise - Top Gun
Leonardo Di Caprio - Titanic (I will never let go Jack, I will never let go! sniff)
Brandon Routh - Superman Returns
Matthew McConaughey - How to Lose a Guy in Ten Days
Paul Walker - Into the Blue
Ryan Reynolds - Just Friends

**UPDATE** Thanks D

John Cusack - Say Anything (I never saw the movie but I know D loves it)
Michael Schoeffling - 16 Candles (Jake Ryan is so HOTT!)

Ok I can't come up w/ any more. It must be b/c I'm at work and it is sucking the life out of me and b/c it's Friday.

I Hate Thursdays

Today is just one of those days that I could do w/out. First off it is Thursday. I hate Thursdays. Someone once told me that they loathed Thursdays. I asked them why and they said that they didn't have a reason, the day of the week just always sucked for them. I laughed at him at the time but now I know what he is talking about. I usually never know why I hate Thursdays I usually just do. So again, it is Thursday. Then this morning this SUV almost t boned my car in my work parking lot.... I was so shocked by the whole event that I didn't even hit my horn. Damn SUV drivers! Once at work I remembered that a co-worker is off for the rest of the week and I had to deal w/ some of her calls this morning... not a good way to start off my day. A few hours into my day my stomach started hurting, hurting so bad that I thought that I was going to throw up but luckily drinking a coke helped calm it down. And to top it all off today is Valentines Day. Usually I never care about today or get sad but today I'm a little bummed that I don't have someone special to spend it w/ (My D did offer to be my Valentine, thanks D). It didn't help that everyone at work was making such a big deal about today. Otherwise I think I would have been fine. Only 10 hours to go until it is Friday!

Playing hookie never felt so good!

I woke up this morning feeling that I had to find a way out of going to work. When that didn't happen I dragged myself out of bed, got ready and headed off. Once at work I knew that it was going to be impossible to make it the whole day, so the plotting began. I talked myself into faking a headache and my acting skills went into action. I actually had co-workers coming up to me asking if I was feeling ok... YES I'M GOOD... so right before lunch I told my manager that I needed to go home. Thinking that they would tell me to wait to at least the half day point I was totally surprised when they suggested that I just pack up and go home.... OH IM IN HEAVEN!

So now I'm at home all nice and cozy (it is at best 7 degrees outside) and home before the snow starts (they are saying we might get 3-5 inches starting at 3PM)! The possibilities are endless right now on how I can spend my afternoon, should I take a nap, read a book, watch a movie... I just don't know... Anyways I'm off to finish enjoying my afternoon!!

Promise is a promise

A few days ago I promised a friend that this fall I was finally going to take a photograghy class like I have been saying for a few years now. I think that I have also picked out the camera that I want to get. Now I just have to start saving...

Hmmm. Could this guy be the one???

One thing that I hate about myself is that whenever there is a guy that I like I automatically think to myself 'Can I see myself married to this guy.' Why do I do this? Am I the only one who does this or do others think the same way? I wish that I could just learn to stop these thoughts and try to enjoy myself and what this guy has to offer me w/out jumping the gun and freaking myself out. Because then I just start to focus on the things that I don't like about the guy thinking that well I could never end up w/ this guy b/c of____! Then I eventually talk myself out of liking the guy. It is a sicking process that I go through all the time.

If you have any advise please let me know....

This is for you D...

SAD is real!!! HEHE

http://www.webmd.com/depression/seasonal-affective-disorder

You've lost that loving feeling...

I first want to start this entry by saying that on the radio this morning they said that we have not had sunlight since Feb 1st and it was only out for 11 mins. With that being said, I wanted to share with you that I suffer from SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) and have not had any energy or motivation to do anything. I have been a pathatic lump of mush actually.

Wanting to change this state of mind I asked a few friends yesterday if they would like to join me for dinner both C and the boy agreed (thank God). We all meet at Buffalo Wild Wings, a new fav place of mine. The food was great, conversation was funny and the song 'You've lost that loving feeling was following me that day.

Earlier that day when emailing the boy we started going back and forth w/ Topgun quotes and ended up emailing lines from the song. Then later at dinner as we all decided that we had had enough fun at BW3s the boy pointed out that 'our' song was on. Again today at work the song came on the radio which brought a smile to my face. Plus it is finally sunny today so my mood is about 5 % better today :)

I'm also adding that my spellcheck function is not working anymore and if you know me, you know that I can't spell for shit so please bare w/ any mis spelled words. Thank you very much!

Have you been invited to the Death Star lately, because I have...

Last week I was having an email conversation w/ a friend. Earlier that week I had invited him to come out w/ my friends and me and now he was telling me that he wouldn't be able to make it. I totally fall into sexual converstaions all the time and don't even realise it...

Me: Fine. Don't hang out w/ me. I see how it is.
Boy: You can always come over to the Death Star whenever you want ; )
(FYI Death Star in boy lingo = his townhouse. And for those of you how don't know, the Death Star is Darth Vadors ship in Star Wars!)
Me: Well I might just have to do that. Why do you call it the death star?
Boy: To impress you ; )
Me: Oh I like it when boys try to impress me. So what else you got to impress me w/?
Boy: Well you'll have to come over to the death star and find out ; )

Man I so walked into that one... I'm such an airhead sometimes. HEHE!!!

So far this month has put me in the dumps

It is only 5 days into Feb and I am already over it. The weather has shit on us here... We started Feb 1 w/ getting 9 inches of snow and we are to get another 5-9 inches tomorrow. I have spend $1500 on my car the past week and I'm stressed out at work. I haven't posted much lately b/c even though I have stuff to say I'm not sure I'm ready to put it on here yet. So instead I'm have kept my self busy by reading other really cool blogs that I have found. It is good to know that there are others out there who suffer from the same stuff as me. I think it is a comfort to read about there lives and how they deal w/ stuff.

Oh and an update on a previous post. This isn't official but I think my brother is moving to NC instead of CA in May...... Looks like I might not even get the chance to move there even if I decided to.