Damn those 100 calorie packs!

Ok so last night I was doing a little bit of shopping at Target. I was looking for some snacks to have at work. I came to the 100 calorie pack choices and I decided to try the mini blueberry muffins. I had never bought these before so I didn't know what to expect. I didn't know if there were going to taste good, maybe they had less calories or were the quanties just less. I took a chance and brought one of the mini blueberry packs w/ me to work this morning. I barely ate anything yesterday ( I will explain why in another blog story I have for you ) so I riped open the pack about 5 mins of being at work. And after I open it I see that there are TWO mini muffins.... WTF! That is 100 calories! I ate them (there were quite good actually) and then was left w/ wanting more. I think the whole 8 pack box I bought is equalivant to one whole muffin. And damn it I'm still hungry!

I'm so proud of you!

Hey Jenne, I just wanted to let you know that I'm so proud of you for going out and getting your dream job!!! I heard from mom that your first day was great and that you are going to have your own patient tonight! Good luck!

Damn they figured me out!!!

So it has finally happened.... My bosses have somehow figured out that I'm not as busy as I pretend to be b/c they have given me more accounts to work on. Those bastards. Luckily for me I'm pretty fast at getting them done so I can still continue to do my email, blogging and just doing nothing!!! Life is good!

Baby it's cold outside

So this past weekend has been the coldest weekend so far and I'm hoping that we don't have anymore like it...

I ended up having a wonderful weekend (for the most part, I'll explain the not so great part a little later). Friday I visited Patty b/c she is not very mobile after having her foot surgery. Chris came over a little bit later and we ate, laughed and watched TV. Oh and I pulled out all of our old High School pics and they were so funny to look at. I wanted to burn about 99% of them but still quite funny. Saturday I had a busy day. I had to take in Biscuit for an 8:30 vet appointment to see what was wrong w/ him. I felt so bad b/c he got a full physical but it turns out that Biscuit is only constipated. YAY! Now I just have to find food that he will eat that has more fiber in it! I then went shopping, cleaned the house (I even swiffered the floor), and I baked a cake. Later that night I met up w/ my friends and we went to Mac Grill for dinner and then went back to my house to watch my friend Karie's wedding video. I love wedding so it was so much fun watching it. Although now that I have watched my self dance I now see that I make way too many funny faces. I think I might get way too into my dancing. I might need to refrain from going that. Well as my friends and I were watching the video my neighbor was playing his music very loudly. It was kinda annoying b/c it had sounded like the same song going on for like 3 hours. My friends left a little bit after midnight and the music just kept on going. Finally at 1:23 it stopped!! I was so pissed at this point, I so wanted to call the cops on him (man I feel old) b/c I was tired and couldn't sleep w/ all that noise. So the next morning it started all over again. This time there was singing along w/ the music. OMG!! The little light in my head is going on... He is having band practice at his house. GREAT!!! I wonder how ofter this will take place! Anyways on Sunday I was able to get a lot of my book read so I was happy b/c I was able to be lazy and read! I need more weekends like that.

The Biscuit

Ok so I have a cat named Biscuit aka The Biscuit aka baby love (yeah I so stole that nickname from the TV show 'Girls Next Door') and I'm taking him to the vet tomorrow morning. It seems that he is having some issues depositing his goal into the litter box b/c he has this terrible cry! I'm thinking that he is constipated or at least hoping that is his issue and it isn't anything majorly wrong w/ him. I'm such a bad mommy too b/c I'm taking him outside on the coldest day of the year!!! Anyways so wish us luck that The Biscuit will be ok!

What's wrong w/ people.....

Ok I'm going to be venting about my job. I just can't stand this place this week. I don't want to sound mean but I work w/ the stupidest people around. There is this customer that I work w/ and my contact there is only working w/ about two brain cells. It is pretty sad that I take her job more seriously then she does. And it stresses me out that she can't even do the simplest thing. OMG! Anyways I have finally gotten today the things that I needed from her (I have been asking for this stuff for over a week) and my stress level is slowly going down! I think my blood pressure is almost normal and the hives are fading! I'm just waiting for her to drop the next bomb though. Damn I hate Thursdays!

Random Fact and I'm Bored

My first name is the 66th most common name in the whole USA!

I'm so the favorite aunt

I babysat for 3 of my nieces and nephews on Friday. It went really well. The kids were so well behaved for an 8, 6, and 4 year old. They showed me all of there Christmas gifts and then we decided to watch SpongeBob SquarePants the movie (which was actually pretty funny) ate way too much popcorn and then I helped them set up for the slumber party they were going to have in the oldest room. Yesterday my sister in law called to chat and the middle niece asked to talk to me just to say hi. I'm so there favorite aunt now!!!

An amazing thing has happened to me.

Well not really but I just wanted to share that I brought a diet coke w/ me to work this morning b/c I was out of my regular coke (which is my form of coffee) and I liked the diet coke. I have in the past months been slowly making a change over to diet pop. It all started w/ diet root beer. It is wonderful b/c it tastes almost the same as the real thing. Then the switch to diet Dr. Pepper was added. A little bit different but still good. I had always hated diet coke w/ a passion. It was the nastiest thing to me but today there was a break though. Now maybe I can truly make the switch over to diet!!

Ice Skating!

I went ice skating this weekend. I friend is having foot surgery today so we wanted to do something fun over the weekend. OMG I'm in so much pain today (two days after mind you) . I didn't fall or anything, which is why this is funny, but yesterday my ankle was hurting me, it was even swollen a little bit. Today My hip and shin hurt on top of my ankle still hurting... OMG I really am getting old!

Please come stalk me.... is what it says on my forehead!

Ok so I have a somewhat stalker again.... yes for some reason I get these strange guys who do some strange things. Most of my stories are good but I'm going to talk about my current stalker. His name is Kurt and until Friday I really didn't know much about him besides that he somehow knew my boss and that he liked rock music. Anyways I will start from the beginning.


One day I answered the phone at work. It was someone (Kurt) asking for my boss Dave. Well before I could transfer him to Dave, Kurt just started asking me questions. I was very stand offish to him but he just kept on asking. He did also get my name. The next day he called again. I knew just from his voice who he was (although at the time I didn't know his name) and he called and told me a joke. He said that he would call me everyday and tell me one. And he did for about a week and let me add that I still wasn't friendly on the phone w/ him. But he did say maybe you should give me your email so that way I don't have to bother you at work by me calling all the time. I give it to him thinking that my torture would end. I just wouldn't email back and he would get the hint. Well that didn't work. He called me to tell me that I wasn't emailing him.... GREAT! Now I had to email him. Which I kinda did. But this time I had told my direct boss and that I thought it was strange. Dave mentioned him to me so I knew that Kurt had mentioned me to him... GROSS!! Anyways Dave and Sally were laughing about the whole issue so I didn't worry about it too much.


He then a few days after asked me what kind of music I like. He then told me he was going to make me a mix CD. Ok who does that. Thinking that he was kidding I totally forgot about it. When I came back from Christmas I had an emailing from him asking if I got the CD yet. I said no but he had sent it w/ a runner and right at 3:00 that day guess what I got. A mix CD!!! Ok hold back the laughing... This is what he wrote on the package "Hi M, CD as promised. It's not hard, hard rock. Am going easy on you this time. Next one will shake the earth!! Kurt" Ok really hold back the laughing... I'm not even at the best part yet. Before NYE he send me the corniest email ever. I wished that I saved it. Ok so I thought that after the new year I was in the clear. I hadn't heard from him. I still haven't but on Friday my boss walks up to me and says 'What's w/ Kurt?' I said I don't know he's your friend! Then I got the 411 from Dave. He used to work for Dave about 15 years ago. He was married and had like 7 kids. He also never showed up for work and then his drug dealers started calling work!!! OMG! Anyways he is now telling Dave that his life is back together and that Dave needs to put in a good word for him to me!!! Seriously how do this losers find me!!!!!

His name is?

So everyday at work this guy comes in three times a day to drop off and pick up stuff. We call them runners b/c they go to local businesses that we need to get documents or money too. Anyways he is sorta new and kinda cute. But he also has this vibe that he is just a really cool guy. Kinda like a Lenny Kravitz kind of vibe. He just seems like he would be totally cool to be friends w/. His voice is really deep and nice too like he could be a singer or something. So for the past few days I have been trying to guess what his name was. It had to be something totally manly. This morning a co-worker asked him what his name was.... it's Glenn. I was so disappointed by that... I think his cool factor dropped a few points. Although he is still way cooler then most of us so it's ok.

One Thing I Wish I Could Change About Me

Ok so lately I totally suffer from OCD! And it DRIVES ME CRAZY!!! It is only w/ certain things too. Every night I have to check to make sure that all the doors are locked about 2 times. The reason that I usually make the second trip of checking the locks is because I will think to myself, "Did I just lock the doors or did I just think about it but I never did it." I also check to make sure that my alarm clock is set like a million times. I in the past have slept through it or forgot to set it and have been late to work. I'm SO paranoid that that could happen again that I set my alarm clock on my night stand AND I also set the alarm on my cell phone! And lastly at work mostly on Fridays I double and sometimes triple check all of my files and things that I have done for the day just to make sure that I did everything that needed to be done. I'm so paranoid that I will mess up and make a mistake. Man it drives me nuts. I find that the more stressed out I am the more I feel the need to check myself... I'm rereading this and thinking to myself that maybe I need medication for this :)

It finally hit me

Last night I was watching a TV show (I'm not going to mention which one b/c you would laugh) and it got me thinking about when I started to get unhappy w/ my life. It was right before I finished college. My whole life before that time was all planned out for the most part. I went to school and had a part time job once I got old enough to work. Once the reality came to me that I was going to have to start making decisions for myself on what I wanted my life to be I think I started to fall apart a little bit. To this day I hate having to make decisions on my life. I think that I hate it so much that I usually avoid doing it. I wish that I could have someone tell me what I need to do and then I would do it. I guess the good part about this is that I am finally realizing this about me.

Good Advise to live by...

I read this in another blog but I need to start doing this!

A lecturer, when explaining stress management to an audience, raised a glass of water and asked, "How heavy is this glass of water?" Answers called out ranged from 20g to 500g.
The lecturer replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long you try to hold it. If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm. If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance. In each case, it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes."

He continued, "And that's the way it is with stress management. If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden becomes increasingly heavy, we won't be able to carry on. "
"As with the glass of water, you have to put it down for a while and rest before holding it again. When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the burden."

"So, before you return home tonight, put the burden of work down. Don't carry it home. You can pick it up tomorrow. Whatever burdens you're carrying now, let them down for a moment if you can."

So, my friend, why not take a while to just simply RELAX. Put down anything that may be a burden to you right now. Don't pick it up again until after you've rested a while.

Life is short.

Enjoy it!

The Proposal

When I was 14 years old I drove w/ my parents out to Quantico, VA. My brother Jr was having his graduation from Office Training school w/ the Marines. Well before the ceremony he told me to go out on the lawn after the ceremony was over b/c there was going to be something special happening. Afterwards I walked out there w/ my parents and we saw Jr standing next to some girl talking to her and keeping her occupied. From behind them I saw a group of about 25 marines walking in formation (so it was 5 rows of guys w/ 5 guys in each row) towards my brother and this girl. They walked past them turned to the left walked a little bit more then made another left turn and were now facing my bro and the girl. One of the marines commanded something and all 24 guys dropped to one knee. The guy in the center was left standing w/ a red rose. It was the girls boyfriend. Someone else commanded something else and the boyfriend walked up to the girl. At that time another marine walked up placed a pillow in front of him and he then bend down on one knee and asked her to marry him. It was the most romantic way to be asked to marry someone. I couldn't even hear what the guy said but the show did it for me. Now do you see why I loves the marines so much :) I then found out that the whole idea was my brothers... Oh what a softy!

A Shot at Love

Earlier this year my friends talked me into joining match.com. I started in March and cancelled my membership in December. Unfortunately I was not lucky enough to find someone on there like a few of my friends. I did however meet some interesting people and not all interesting in a good way. The first guy I met was Steve. I liked Steve. We went on about five dates and then he stopped calling... that was a hard one. I think I was just starting to let myself really like him. Next up I meat Art. Art was super duper nice and pretty cute. He was just a little bit too open w/ his emotions and I just couldn't handle that. And he really didn't know how to date. He asked me "What do I do next!" That was a total turnoff. He was a good guy though and we still email each other every once in awhile.


My next shot at meeting someone was Andy. First impression was he was very attractive. After talking to him for five mins I was ready to walk out the restaurants door. I don't know how to explain it but his face make the most unusual expressions... plus he didn't ask anything about me until like over an hour into our conversation. He definitely didn't get a second date. After Andy was Bobby. I was a little bit let down by Bobby's appearance. He looked much different from the pics he had on his profile. I think that he gained about 50 lbs. Not that that alone was going to stop me from seeing him. He also seemed to be gay. That was a little too hard to deal w/.


By this point I was starting to give up. Then someone I had emailed w/ in the beginning of my membership emailed me again. His name was Vito. Red flags should have gone up right there for me. Yes he was 100% Italian. If you know me you would know that I have always warned my friends not to date an Italian. I thought I would give him a shot though. I was trying to be as open as possible. I went on a few dates w/ Vito even after a kinda bad impression from our first date. He was very good looking but he totally had that "I'm the man and you are the women" thing doing. He was basically looking for someone to take over from his mom taking care of him... Not for me. I finally decided that it was time to quit looking.

Not many of you can relate

I was watching the news last night (shocking I know) and it was talking about men and women from the Air Force being deployed overseas to the war. This brought back some not so great memeories to me. I come from a military family (just in case you didn't know) and fortunately I have only had to witness one family member having to go and fight in the war. My brother Jr has gone over two times already and might have to go one more time.

When I was 10 years old Jr was in the Air Force and his unit was picked to go over to the first Desert Storm war. At this point the military wasn't his "job" and he had to leave college to go over to Saudi Arabia. Only being 10 years old I didn't really know what was going on. It wasn't until the day that we had to drive him to the Air Force base to fly overseas did I know how scary this really was. I was in my room and all of a sudden I heard my Dad sobbing. I have never, even to this day seen or heard my dad cry like this. Now I was scared. It was so hard to have to hug him good bye and then see him leave. If my memory is correct we even got to see his plane fly away. Luckily his job in the military wasn't too demanding and he was never in harms way. I think I heard him say that he was just hanging out w/ some guys from Italy.

Now comes the second war. This was right after Sept 11th. Jr had to go over again. He was over there before we "started" the war. This time I knew what was going on since I was older and this time there really was a reason to be scaried. Jr had now switched over to the Marines and was a Cobra helicopter fighter pilot. There are less then 200 Cobra pilots in the whole United States. And yes I said fighter pilot. That means that he was fighting (guns, bombs etc.) every time that he was in the air. We had so many scares when he was over there when we heard on the TV that a helicopter was shot down. There was even a time when it was a Cobra was shot down, being less then 200 in the whole US and not that many are over there at one time it was such a horrible long night until we knew that it wasn't him. I was in such a constant fear. I knew that my family was going through the same thing that I was feeling but I felt like the world was still doing on and so few had these worries like me. I was so jealous that I couldn't let one day go by and not think 'What if something happened today'. Thank God he was fine and didn't have to stay there long. After he came back to the states and soon after he flew out to Chicago and we had a surprise "Welcome Home" party for him. He wasn't the brother that I had known. The war had messed w/ his mind a bit. I had asked him when he was home if he had killed people. He looked at me w/ a "Are you serious" look and was like "Yes". I then asked if he had killed a lot. I don't remember what his exact answer was but yeah it was a lot. He soon went back to the normal brother that I knew.

Jr had then been lucky to not have to go back and then got a job working at Annapolis Navel Academy teaching the students there. His three years are almost up and he will be returning to being a pilot. His wife told me that he might have to go over there again. I sure hope not b/c I don't want to have to go through that scaried feeling again.

Scrapbooking the Weekend Away...

I got invited to go up to Lake Geneva, WI this past weekend by my sister in law Erin. She is a Creative Memories demonstrator and three times a year they hold these weekend scrap-a-thons. This was the first time that she was hosting a spot and invited a lot of family. I love to scrapbook but always get to involved in talking to my friends or looking at there old scrapbooks that I never get anything done. There must have been some kind of magic in this conference room that they had us all in ( there were about 50 of us ) because I was so on a roll. I got 8 pages done in the 3 days that I was there, which for me is a miracle. There was so much to do up there. We went shopping in Lake Geneva ate at really good places and I think that I gained about 10 lbs. But on top of that I just had a great time being w/ everyone there. I had known everyone of Erin's seven guests. It was my mom, my sister in law Jenny, her friend Gail. Erin's sister Gin ( I know her very well b/c she used to date my brother way back in the day) her mom and a next door neighbor. So it was a great environment ( I could see the lake from the hotel), great conversation, and great people to be around.

Gotta love when people have boob envy!

Ok so on NYE a friend got pretty wasted. She was walking back from getting another round of drinks and she walks up to me and says in a totally drunk slowed version of her normal talking " I love your boobs, I wish I had them! " I think that was one of the highlights of my night!!

I think you are the father of one of my kids

A guy goes to the supermarket and notices an attractive woman waving at him. She says hello. He's rather taken aback because he can't place where he knows her from. So he says, "Do you know me?", to which she replies, "I think you'rethe father of one of my kids." Now his mind travels back to the only time he has ever been unfaithfulto his wife and says, "My God, are you the stripper from my bachelor party that I made love to on the pool table with all my buddies watching while your partner whipped my butt with wet celery???" She looks into his eyes and says calmly, "No, I'm your son's teacher."

Shout Out

I would like to take this time to give a shout out to my friend C. On NYE there were a group of Marines there and she walked up to one and asked if he had any single friends. C is normally on the shy side so this was very impressive and I'm sure it helped that she was quite tipsy at the time but still she did ask. Unfortunately he said that all of the Marines there were taken! Darn!

Update

Ok so I just wanted to say that since writing my blog yesterday I have since been in a better mood. I didn't want to keep my feelings in b/c I knew that it would just eat me away and I'm not the best person to express how I'm feeling at all. Actually I totally suck at it. So blogging about how I felt was the only thing I could come up w/ to try to make me feel better. I guess writing about my feelings just makes me feel better. Plus shedding a few tears didn't hurt either.

And after talking to someone today I am starting to think that even if i were to have someone special to spend NYE w/ would I still have felt lonely like I did? Would having a b/f make that feeling go away? My mom has been telling me for awhile now that finding that one person what you want to spend your life w/ doesn't mean that all the other crap in your life will go away. I have always had it in my head that finding that someone would magically make it all go away but I think it is finally setting in that it wont be like that. Don't get me wrong I'm still feeling lonely that I don't have a better half but I think that maybe I need to try to fix the other things in my life that might be causing me to feel this way also. I just now have to figure out what that is!

What do you think....

Ok do you think that I should cut my hair short and wear it straight everyday instead of my long curly hair????? What do you think?????

I need to find me a Man like this.. a guy who likes cats and can defend our country!

New Years Resolution...

My friend KB asked me what my New Years resolution was going to be yesterday. I wasn't sure until today. I'm going to try to do all of the things that I say I want but never do. So this year if I comment about something I want then it is going to be my goal to try to accomplish it.

I'm Sick

Ok im going to first warn you that im in a horrible mood and that this blog is going to have a much angry vibe to it so you might not even want to read it but this blog is to help me feel better about what im feeling so that is why im writing it.

im sick of being in such a bad mood ALL of the time. i dont' know know how to help myself get out of this bad mood but it is killing me.

im sick of being alone. yesterday was new years eve and even though i was w/ most of my clostest friends ever i have never felt more alone then i did last night. i so bad just wanted to have someone there w/ me to bring in the new year w/ that is was all i could do to hold back a sobbing fest.

im so sick of people always pointing out my age. it is such a sentative subject w/ me that i dont' want to be reminded that im getting up there and having NOTHING to show for it in my life besides a lot of bills.

im so sick of thinking that my life is pathatic!!!! i have no self estem anymore. i used to have a lot but i guess shit happened and it just went away.

im sick of putting other peoples feelings before mine. that is just the kind of person that i am and i will prob still put there feelings before mine but im so sick of it.

im sick of playing the safe side of things. i never take a chance in life.

im so sick of people who use me, there is one person right now that im thinking of (none of you girls) but im so thinking of not talking to him anymore... oh and i hate it when he lies to me!!!

im sick of wanting so many things and never going out and getting them. i can only solo take the blame for this one and it sucks but i guess that i will have to try to somehow figure out how to get what i want.

im so sick of being afraid of being in a relationship. i want one so bad and at the same time they scare the hell out of me. i guess that is why im my age and single!! i need to get my f***ing act together otherwise im going to be living at my parents house forever.

and on a last note....... why are there so many f***ing losers out there that find me... why can't i get a nice one that will treat me right.... no i just get guys who don't want shit from me or stalkers. if everyone one else can find it then what the hell is my problem.

im sorry for the few people who actually do read this. but like i said before this is only an attempt to make myself feel better and i doubt that will work today......... great way to start out my new year........ just great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!