06/02/08 = BLAH

I know we are should never wish away days, we should live each day to the fullest but I don't want to do that today. Today or last night rather started off bad. I couldn't sleep, I'm not sure why, maybe it was b/c I was hot or just not sleepy or just dreading going to work the next day. As I was getting ready for work this morning I was getting nervous about coming into work. That is what my job has done to me. I just anticipate all these bad things happening and then panic attacks start. By the time I walked into work my heart was pounding. So in protest I am going to try to not work at all today unless I need to get something done right away.

06/19/08 the search for a new job begins!