So True Sometimes...

Love this pic

Ok D I'm totally coping you but I loved this pic. And that is a good website! Thanks for sharing.

Happy Engagement!

Congrats to D and J!! I'm so happy for both of you guys for finding each other.

i carry your heart with me

Ok I HATE poetry but I love this poem. It was from a movie that I saw once and for some reason I thought of it today.

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) i am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling) i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart).

dear k:

i miss you. i miss who we used to be. our friendship was special to me. i wish so much that we could go back a few years in time and i could find some way to fix what happened between us. but to help myself deal with this lose of friendship i pretend that ten years from now we will forget it all and find our way back into each others lives.

What I wouldn't give right now to be here

Take a chill pill

OK so lately I have not been able to manage my stress levels very well. Well actually it is pretty horrible. My psoriasis has been flaring up, I think I'm on my way to getting an ulcer and I also have black spots in my vision! So here are some of the things that maybe I could try to help my stress situation.

Quit my job. Either I could become a bum or I get a job where pretty much I have to ask is 'Would you like some fries w/ that?'

Start using the stress ball that I have. But I think that the stress ball is mocking me. It is bright orange w/ a smiley face on it and really what it is trying to say to me is 'Yeah that's right use me to de-stress yourself but what I'm really going to do is give you a cramp in your hand so you will be walking around w/a claw for a hand!' That damn smiley stress ball.

I could get a Zen garden for my desk at work. I could sit at my desk and rake my sand and rearrange the rocks. That does sound peaceful but I don't work w/ the nicest of people so first off they would make fun of me and secondly they would probably put water in my sand and write you suck in the wet sand.

If anyone has some suggestions on how I should de-stress at work please let me know.

It's a love hate thing

So food and I have a love hate relationship. There are some foods that I love but they just don't love me back. It is sad really b/c there are only a handful of different kinds of food that I like so finding stuff that will agree w/ me is an issue sometimes.

Dairy (or better yet Milk) broke up w/ me about 7 years ago. At first we were a little bit rocky w/ each other but then it was a full blow out. I couldn't even look at anything w/ milk in it w/out getting sick. It is so sad b/c there are so many great food items that consist of milk. Luckily I have found Lactaid Milk to hold me over.

Spicy food. Well anything over mild will make my body start its own fire. Only bland food for me and sometimes even that is still no good.

Greasy food (Pizza Hut is a good example) is like giving me a fast acting laxative. It is not a pretty picture.

I would like to cross you off my list

OK so I have a list of things that I would like to do. Kinda like a list of things I would like to do before I die but not really. My goal is cross off at least one thing every year.

Here are some of the things on my list:

1. Go to the art museum. I love art and I'm so shocked that I have never made it there.
2. Go horse back riding.
3. Rock climbing. Maybe I should start in an indoor place like at Dicks Sporting Goods. I'm not athletic at all.
4. See an opera
5. Go to Hawaii. Ideally I would like to go there on my honeymoon.
6. Take some dance lessons! This one is a must. I would love to learn a dance for my first dance as husband and wife at my wedding.
7. Take some more photography classes.
8. Plan a time to go on vacation but I don't want to plan a destination. I would love to just jump in the car w/ whoever I'm going w/ and just drive and see where we end up.
9. Grow my hair super long and then chop it off and donate it.
10. Go to a comedy club
11. Volunteer somewhere.

Dancing

On Monday I'm going to see So You Think You Can Dance and I'm so excited. I can't wait to see my favorite couple do my favorite dance. I think that in another life I was a dancer!

November 1, 2008

Ok so today is my birthday. I thought it would be fun to write about what I would want my life to be like one year from today.

On November 1, 2008 I would like to be waking up that morning in my own place. Either living alone or w/ a room mate. I will have gotten another cat, a ragdoll cat named Verona. Biscuit will also be with me in his old age. I will be working at a new job that I love and it will pay enough so that I am more financially stable. Maybe it would be that HR job that I have always wanted. I will be in a serious relationship with a guy who is everything I want and I will be 100% in love w/ him and will want to marry him. My sister Jenne will be in the process of moving back to IL w/ her family and her, my mom and I would have lunch together and then go shopping. For dinner my wonderful boyfriend will be talking me to the Melting Pot restaurant (a new favorite of mine) for dinner and surprise me w/ a really nice gift, maybe a coach purse! My family will give me a surprise birthday the weekend after my birthday b/c they will know that turning 29 will be harder then turning the big 30! Yeah that sounds good to me. I will put that all on my birthday list for next year.

Funny & Cute

The Party

So on Friday I had my Halloween/Bday party. I had so much fun and I would like to thank my friends so much for adding to my happiness. The evening had much entertainment to offer the people who attended. There were many of us in our wonderful itchy wigs although the best wig was Jane Jetsons and her sex hair!! Someone had there d*ck in a box. There was an ostrich who keep on poking all the ladies. A racist grandma that had us all laughing even though we shouldn't have been. A pervert uncle who keep on staring at Wednesday and me, Mia. We had a superman who couldn't sit down w/out being chocked by all his muscles. An astronaut in a diaper plus a shady Clark Kent. A women who looked like a man and scared all of the other ladies w/ her butchness. A Seattle ER doc w/ wonderful hair plus a Ms Adams who keep on showing her boobies. Mia Wallace kept on smacking her booty and doing her dance b/c no one knew who she was. And the best of all was a Superman beagle.

Things That Make Me Happy

Going to my new favorite restaurant Cheeseburger in Paradise w/ my friends. They have my favorite drink there too.

Having traditions w/ my family. Every Halloween we make tacos for dinner. My mom made tacos on 10/31/79, the day before I was born and we have pretty much done it every year since!

Eating Greek food at Athena's at Greek town. I should have been Greek, I love there food.

Doing things for other people. I love helping out friends and family! If I can help make someone happy then my job is done.

I love it when you call, text or email someone and they tell you that they were just thinking of you and had planned on calling, texting or email.

I'm new to blogging but I love that I can vent about things that are bothering me or write about some of my favorite memories.

Having such close friends that share the same personalities and hobbies as I do. My friends are really just an extension of my family.

Doing fun activities around the holidays like carving pumpkins, making Easter eggs or ginger bread houses.

Going to the movies!!! I love a great cinematic adventure.

Birthdays!

OK so I am one week away from turning one year older. And with all of the excitement and anticipation of what the party will be like this year, it has made me think back to birthdays in the past. I think that I have had two that have been my favorite.

Favorite birthday party #1: When the big 24 was coming around I had a hard time knowing that I was turning 24 (don't ask why) and my close friends knew it. I was celebrating my birthday at this club/lounge and invited a lot of my friends. We were all up on the little VIP area (if you can even call it that) and about an hour of being there 2 of my close friends walked up to the VIP area and they were carrying a birthday cake and all my friends sang Happy Birthday to me. They also had flowers for me. Even though it wasn't anything big that really made my birthday and made turning 24 a little bit easier.

Favorite birthday party #2: Last years birthday party was a lot of fun. I decided to have all of my closest friends over to my house for some homemade pizza and dessert and then we all headed out to Dave N Busters. I had never been there before and I ended up having such a blast. We all kind of split up once we got there but I was able to make my rounds and hang out w/ everyone. Most of my friends gave me there tickets that they won so I was even able to walk away w/ a huge pink care bear that was about half my size.

I guess it doesn't really matter what I do for my birthdays as long as I am with the people I care about most. So this birthday still has hope of becoming one of my favorites.

Places I have been:

1983 - Disney World w/ my parents and grandparents
1987 - Galena w/the family
1992 - Dallas TX for my sisters wedding
1998 - Disney World w/ two of my girlfriends. First trip w/out parents.
1999 - San Diego, CA visited my brother and sister in law
2000 - Clearwater, FL w/ my brother and sister in law
2001 - Cape Cod & NH visited brother and sister in law and niece
2002 - Clearwater, FL w/ four of my girlfriends. Favorite trip so far.
2003 - Vegas w/ two girlfriends
2003 - Cruise to Key West and Cozumel. Then stayed in Miami for five days.
2005 - Dells
2006 - Myrtle Beach w/ four of my girlfriends
2006 - Dells

I need branch out and go to new places!!

How I Spent My Saturday Night...

Saturday night I went to Bamboo for my friend P's birthday. First off I want to start by saying that I'm so over the whole club thing. I feel old and want to go home about an hour of being out. Well I tried to have positive thoughts this time and it did help b/c my mood was up. My friend T arrived a little bit after us and he had brought a friend, Mike. I thought he was pretty cute and told my girls. P pulled T aside and told him that I thought he was cute and I got the thumbs up from P that he was single. I then kept on going up to my girls saying that I don't have any game anymore and trying to hit on a guy was freaking me out. What if my hair was flat or if I had eye goop in the corner of my eyes. I used to be so good at talking to guys but it has been so long. Well I finally got up the nerve and walked over and joined T, P, and Mikes conversation. Mike and I started our own conversation and about 5 minutes later I was ready to walk away and never talk to the guy again. He was so dopey and not worth my time. I was able to avoid him for most of the night. P then wanted to go downstairs and dance. I love to dance so I wasn't going to say no. T and Mike followed us down. At first we were all having a great time dancing in a circle. All of a sudden Mike (who was to my right) is not there anymore. I start to feel that someone is behind me dancing really close. I kinda stepped closer to T and Mike backed away. Thinking that he got the hint that I didn't want to bump n grind I started to let loose again and get my groove on. Moments later someone puts there hands on my shoulders from behind me and then turned me around so that I am facing strangers and then basically tried to butt f*ck me. Not happy at all I basically just walked away from him and started to dance w/ P. I am so not like a 21 year old who would be like "Oh yeah, give me more" I am so past that stage now. So basically I started the night thinking that this guy might have some potential to thinking of what a loser he was. But I was texting all night w/ the new boy D all night so it wasn't all a wasted night!!

411

The following story took place about 9 or 10 years ago. My friend Karen was over at my house and we had been listening to the radio and heard that there was going to be some sort of contest to win something NSYNC related. Since we were such big fans we wanted to have the phone number to the radio station so that we would be able to call them ASAP when the contest was starting. So Karen suggested that I call 411 to get the phone number. Ok here is where the story starts but I first want to state that I had never called 411 before AND didn't know what the wonderful operators of the 411 company would be asking me AND I don't have the best hearing so now after making my disclaimer I will start the 411 conversation:

Operator: City and State?

Melissa: Melissa, Illinois (I thought they had asked 'What is your name and state')

Operator: Ummm hold on..... Ok I need to transfer you to someone else....

Operator #2: City and State?

Melissa: March 15th 1999 (I thought they had asked 'What is the date')

Operator #2: (giggling) Hold on and let me transfer you to someone else.....

Operator #3: Honey what are you looking for?

(At this point I'm starting to think that I'm doing something wrong in our conversation plus Karen is looking at me like I'm looney.)

Melissa: I need the radio station.

Operator #3: What city is it in?

Melissa: (flustered) I don't know Rockford, Dekalb I don't know.

Karen is laughing so hard at this point that she is turning blue from not breathing. Which makes me start to laugh. Plus Operator #3 is laughing, so I had no choice but to hang up the phone.

Needless to say I never got the phone number to the radio station, we never won the NSYNC stuff and have refused to call 411 since that time!

I Wish

Ok I know that there are many others things that I would want to wish for like, stop world hunger and stop terrorist from attacking our country but I wanted to keep this wish list a little bit on the fun side and only talk about ME :)

I wish for my siblings to move back to IL. Mostly my sister Jenne. She moved away when I was 10 and whenever she visits and leaves me I go into a weeks long depression.

I wish that I had a job going something with photography.

I wish that I would find someone special who I would want to spend the rest of my life with.

I wish that my frequent spats of anxiety would just go away one day.

I wish that I had straight hair for half the days out of the month and curly on the others.

I wish that I didn't have stomach issues and that I could eat any kind of food with out having problems south of the border.

I wish that some old friendships of mine could be repaired.

I wish that I was able to make more decisions on my own with out having to ask others what they think.

I wish that I would follow my heart and not my head.

I wish that I had more time with my grandma B before she got sick and left me.